I Loved You Then

6 years ago today, I stood at an alter and took my wedding vows. This week, our divorce will be finalized....not quite how I imagined we'd be spending our anniversary week. Life throws us curve balls sometimes. We can't see into the future to know how things are going to turn out or where we are going to be, even if we are going to be here. Change is inevitable. There is nothing we can do to stop it, no reason to fight it. We must embrace it, roll with the punches, and go with the flow. You've heard all those sayings and catch phrases but one thing is for sure, changes like this one are never easy. When heartbreak and hurting are part of the equation we resist that change like nothing else. Fighting with all the strength we have to remain in the place we know as our comfort zone. However, as I've learned this past year, sometimes changes like this one are for the best. Am I happy? Yes, I am. Have I adapted to our new life? Yes, I have. Am I sad about the situation. Of course I am as my family has been hurt as a result. Would I change things if I could go back? No, I wouldn't. Everything happens for a reason and God has his hand and purpose wrapped up in all of it. It may take some time to understand why things like this happen, but I know in time it will all come clear to me.

In the meantime, I've moved on. I'm working full time, raising my two beautiful precious children who I wouldn't trade for the world, and learning who I am all over again. God has blessed me with a new man in my life who cheers for me on the sidelines and encourages me through all the ups and downs of every day life. He has the peaceful and patient attitude that I strive for, the gentle and humble spirit that I crave, and a heart that grows for God more and more every day. I feel as if I've been given a second chance at love so that I can take it slow and appreciate the small details of every day with him.

My song for today's post is in reflection of the one thing that NEVER changes....God's love for us. He loved me 6 years ago as I took my vows, he loves me now as I finalize my divorce, and he will love me tomorrow as I uncover the new promises he has for me. His love never fades. The song is called "I Loved You Then" by 33 miles and is #37 on my playlist. Please make sure you take the time to listen to it and share with your loved ones. It will surely bless your heart today.